this is a complication of stuff i've posted on myspace...check it out...
TB

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PLANET RAGE: THE LIFTERS' CREED
no one truly understands the dedicated....but its time to let them know...this goes out to all the haters and the half-asses...who think they know what liftin is..

this world that i live in is the world i've wanted to live in

where everyday is a routine

where every training session his hardcore and ballz to the wall

where nuthin short of a PR will satify a lifter

where your heart, desire, dedication, and balls are tested

where you check your ego and your drama at the door

u take in protein shakes so much you almost can't stand to take more...but you have to...cause u know your always on a mission...

u eat so much that u tire of eatin so much...but u know u can't stop....if u do, u stop the process of evolution of strength and size...

u don't go out as much cause u know your training come first...u also know that your friends aren't as dedicated as you are...

u allow your determination and RAGE to transform you...transformin you into what haters hate u would become...that you'll become what they fear the most...

u knowing this fact, u train harder, u put up with the daily routines, and go to work just so u can go to the gym

u look in the mirror sometimes not to admire the hard work but to realize the power that resides within...

u train smarter and harder than everyone else cause u want it more...cause u know that badasses aren't created in the gym...

in this world, your strength is what matters...not your job, not your dating issues, etc...u consistently make sacrifaces so that you can continue to evolve...

others can keep talkin shit...but really they are makin u famous..u know this and use it as fire to become what they fear u would become...

u also don't sit and wait for your time to come...u go ahead and take it! talkin is cheap...u put your money where your mouth is...and if u fail...no one feels sorry for ya...u just keep usin it to fuel the fire even more...in darkest night, your fire will continue to burn ever so bright...never dies!

in this world, rules and records are made to be broken...and so are ego...u understand this concept and u want others to break the standards u set...cause this will continue to push u harder...the evolution process doesn't stop...

u surround yourself with those who understand what "planet" your from...that understand what your goal is and are backin u 100%...u also drop those who don't know what "planet" your from...cause u know they are holdin u back...

u channel every bit of RAGE into your training and it causes u to transform into something that u wouldn't imagine possible...

u motivate and inspire those around u to visit and live the "planet" your on...so that in turn continues to fuel your fire...

u strike fear and intimidation to those who would fear what u will become...what the RAGE will transform u into...


what does this RAGE transform u into? A MONSTER...A FREAK...A BEAST...AN ANIMAL...that's up to you and only you...only you can make that choice...

but make no mistake, determination and RAGE will transform man into what he manifest himself into bein...see above for that answer...

u admire strength...u don't reward weakness

u crush those who dare to stand in your path of devastation...no man or being dare to stand against you...or can stop you..

for you are thy ENGINE OF RAGE...fueled by passion..glory..pain..blood...sweat...guts


PAIN AND SUFFERING will only make u stronger...the more pain u endure...the stronger u become...

u do what has to be done to accomplish your mission...there are no limits or excuses...those are for the weak...

what u do in the gym is only a measure stick for what u can do on the platform, stage, or in competition...cause that's when badasses are made...and the skull fuckin they do occurs..

u make it an effort to OWN your competition to show your true dominance...to show that u not only wanted it more...but u wanted it the MOST!

u also love a challenge...u aren't afraid to take one and u aren't afraid to be beaten...cause u learn a lot from failure than from success...which in turn will make u stronger...

your transformation will allow u do do and see things most mortals can't comprehend...u know this...and this is why u train...

look in to the mirror...see the power the dwells within...go to the battlefield...and become what YOUR enemies fear the most...

so...if everything here describes you...then there is a name for the planet your from...



WELCOME TO PLANET RAGE!
ONLY THE STRONG MAY ENTER...THE WEAK SHALL BE CRUSHED!-
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PLANET RAGE: THE RAGING LIFTERS' PRAYER


....i come to u...

i come to u before my battle against the cold steel

please...give me the strength

the strength to take on what's impossible

the strength to acheive what most mortals only dream about

to grow stronger from the pain and suffering i might inflict upon myself

to make thy enemies tremble in fear...

fearin what the RAGE will make me become

as i walk thru valley of broken bones of those who trespass before thee

the broken bones of those who would doubt thee...please grant me strength

...for the DARK RAGE has chosen me and i must have the strength to fight

fight against it...and to break those in my path of strength

please give me the strength to control and harness thy RAGE

as i go to battle against the iron to prepare myself for war

the war that is on the platform....

give me the strength to become thy ENGINE OF RAGE...

the strength and rage that will make mortals tremble...

so that i can be strong enough...to win the war

...for the war is neverending...

cause i know every battle against the iron will make me stronger

and every war will make me into what others fear i may become

for the war is neverending...

and i will become what many fear that i will become...

i come to thee with battle scars amillion...these are badges of strength and honor...

i come to thee with my brothers...not in iron but in RAGE...who yurn for the same...

who are my band of brothers in this life-long war against the iron and those who fight the inner DARK RAGE...with whom i bleed and sweat for and with...

please grant me the strength to make them stronger so they can make me stronger

win or lose, i will grow stronger with the battle i wage against thy cold steel and against thy dark rage...

please grant me the strength needed to destroy thy enemies who stand against me and thy mission...

for i shall deliver to u their skull and bones to show my victory...the spoils of war..

i accept the pain and suffering needed to get stronger

i accept any challenge that i might face that will make me stronger

i will do whatever i must to be stronger...

please grant me strength...TO UNLEASH HELL!

AMEN!
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THY ENEMY

THY ENEMY...PLEASE LISTEN...

for these words i speak...will be the truth...

and if u listen...i will reveal your fate..

u stand before my goal...in the way of my destiny that is the iron

u doubt me...but unknownst to thee that will be your greatest error...

for its the negativity that makes me stronger

u say i'm nothing....

but really...your afraid...

afraid that i'm becomin something u fear i will become...

though u can be the first to find out..

u say that i'm not ready for the pain u will bring

i say you aren't ready for the strength that the DARK RAGE has given me...

the type of strength that defies all conception of any pain u can administer...

thy enemy isn't man enough to giveth that amount of pain

u say your ready for battle...but i'm always ready for WAR

u say u can break me...but really your about to be broken before me...

for thy DARK RAGE possesses me...and its enough to break the will of mortal men...

u say u know my weaknesses...yet u fear my strength...

and i know who THY ENEMY is...i know what's in thy enemy's head...

therefore, i know the ending...before it begins...


u will join the millions of skulls and bones of those who tried to do the same...

who tried to stop me...

better mortals than thee has tested my RAGE and they lie before you and behind me...

i'm making reference to the skulls and bones that surround you...

u say your stronger...but those who have to speak that are really the weak ones

but again, u say your stronger, i say your not strong enough...

for u only prepared yourself for battle...i prepare myself always for WAR

let me tell thee what thy future holds...

look not to HEAVEN nor HELL for strength...

for they cannot offer the strength needed for the HELL and RAGE i will bring to thee...

u exist to only make me stronger...and that u will

when u step onto thy battlefield, u will feel my strength...

as it makes the earth tremble...

during the battle, u will realize these words i speak are true

and your fate is becomin another skull i step onto as i continue towards

my ultimate goal...

i will show no mercy for thee for once the drums of war begins...

there is no turnin back

thy ego has betrayed you....you've entered a war you cannot win...

my DARK RAGE will overpower you...

i will show u somethin that most will not

and that is your own fate...

the only thing that will satisfy is the sight of blood and bones being broken...

only then will the pain end...for thy beast is hungry for souls..

LORD please...

forgive thy enemy...for thee know not what thee do nor say...

give thee mercy if it makes them sleep at nite...

cause i sure as hell will not...i cannot LORD

for the DARK RAGE has taken over me...

and will not let me go until blood is shed...

bones are broken...

and thy enemy's ego is destroyed

no...do not take back thy words...

thee has signed a check that thee's ass cannot cash..

the contract has been written in blood

the prophecy has been written

the place under my foot has been chosen...

for i have a place for thy skull

for you have insulted thee with your mediocre ego by

steppin onto my battlefield...for that i have to destroy thee..

don't run...don't be scared now...

thou hast crossed the line from enemy to casualty, the day thou disrespected me.

i smell blood...i smell fear...

it only makes thy beast hunger...even more for your skull....

is its clear to thee yet?

ask yourself, thy enemy...are u ready for WAR?

are u ready for the pain?

are u ready for thy skull-fucking?

preparation for WAR against me...will be futile...

are u ready for WAR?

well...it doesn't matter...if your ready or not...

just get your ass to the battlefield...

pray to the good lord one last time...and hope he can grant u strength

still won't be enough against thy RAGE

make a deal with the devil if u have to...sacriface thy soul for power..

all the power in existence...

and it still won't save you

your standin in my way...

the ENGINE OF RAGE has been turned on..

prepare yourself for DEVASTATION!

FOR THERE IS NO FUCKIN ESCAPE FROM MY RAGE!

and hope u live to see what i will become...what u fear the most...
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CHAPTER: CRIMSON


its the state of mind...

its that place u get to when u don't have a way out...

its where reason doesn't exists...

and only your strength matters...

its not anger...but pure RAGE

its the color u see before approaching the bar...

u hear nuthin...

u see nuthin...

what matters to u is takin on the impossible

u will bleed

u will sweat

but u don't care

u do what u will to accomplish the impossible

at any cost

this puts u in a difference place

u will sacriface

its what that DARK RAGE demands

and its what your heart demands as well

that drive to be stronger than yesterday is what

drives your state of mind

its drives u to impose your pain upon that iron

u refuse to quit

that which possesses u will not allow it

u refuse to let that fire die out

cause it always burns...thru the darkest nites...

it burns the brightest crimson

u know that many if not all will know your name

so u continue to bleed...

sweat...

not blood...but crimson...

cause u know that u hold somethin that not everyone will or

can have...

and that sometin will make u unstoppable

many will doubt you...

many will hate you...

this is just a fuel for your inner RAGE...

its what drives your state of mind...

this state of mind will crush those who stand your path

the path that u have brought devastation to...

the crushin of skull underneath your mighty feet...

cause the sound they make...represents your power...

the power that lies within...not without

cause u know that real men of strength speak of their real strength

thru their actions...not mere words...

words mean nuthin to you...only what u do...

only what u must do...matters...

doin what most are afraid too

doin what most can't do

recreatin yourself into what most fear u will be

no battle can wear u out...

only make u stronger

no war can break you...

only make u stronger

no fear will shake you...

only make u stronger

no pain will make u fall...

only make u stronger

and no one take the "fight" from u or outta u...

for that drives your state of mind...

you have chosen your path

u don't demand nuthin...just take it..

your state of mind is now set

and for you...there is no way out...

this is your state of mind....

this is who u are...
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PLANET RAGE: WANTED!


GO AHEAD AND RUN!

i'll track u thru the darkest area of earth

to find u

u can run but cannot hide

from the overwhleming...

overpowering

RAGE that is about to envelope you

your WANTED!

what crime did u commit?

u know the one...

the only mistake u made...bein a hater...

u made this mistake because of fear...

fearin what i will become...

and now u won't be around to see that...

and now, fear is the only thing that will keep u up at nite

the one thing that will haunt u...no dreams for u

u think u can outsmart me...

i'm a step ahead

u think your stronger than me...

i'm a lot stronger than u can think

too strong for u to comprehend

u talk shit but u run...

but that's fine...i can smell your fear...

it comes thick...thicker than the "yellow" blood that

courses thru your veins

and its foul...yet u running makes me hunt u more...

cause all i can think about is

your bones bein broken by my hands...

and killin your ego

to satisfy my hunger for devastation

when i catch u...i'll take u to a place that

neither HEAVEN nor HELL have a name for

that place is oblivion

when i hunt u like a deer but

the difference is that u deserve to be hunted

the price...your fuckin skull...

and your name on the list of those who's egos i've slain

i won't demand shit...i'm takin your skull...

and there's nuthin your goin to do about it...

so while your wonderin in the land of confusion

tryin to find a place that will hide you

keep this in mind...u weak fuck

i will find you

and u will experience wrath of a man posssessed

by DARK RAGE

the level of RAGE that will be brought will have u

wakin up in cold sweats

fearin my WRATH OF MY RAGE

u will know i'm comin when u feel the earth tremble

and when devastation comes...it will be quick

and painful to your pride and ego

YOUR GUILTY

there is no point in proving your why your not guilty

your mouth and ego has sealed your fate

but u ran...

there will be a point when u will get tired of running

when u run out of places to hide

when u run out of words...words that don't mean shit

you'll find yourself on the platform...

where i can find you...

and when u find yourself in that place...

the roar of thunder will quake thru your existence

the wind will howl violently...

the HUNTERS' MOON has revealed itself...

cause it will be there...breathing and awaiting his skull..

u will feel the "claws of the beast" on your shoulder

he will utter the final words you'll hear...

"YOUR ASS IS MINE!"

may the good lord have mercy on you...

i, the beast, won't...

TB

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THE PAIN

at times...u feel as if your the only one

but u find out that your not...

what is this PAIN that fuels the DARK RAGE?

its the pain of wanting to be better than yesterday...

the pain of wantin to be stronger than last week

the pain of wanting that number that's burned into your forehead

the pain of not wanting to give up when u know its possible

the pain of hearin those who doubt u and knowin what it means if and when they are right...

but u accept the pain...

u embrace it...

cause it makes u evolve into something

something far beyond what u thought was possible..

into what many fear u will become...

but this pain grows...

with every passing challenge or obstacle...it grows

it grows greater when the motivation changes

this is the pain that fuels your own DARK RAGE...

this pain drives u to do insane actions in the gym..

cause u know what has to be done...

what has to be sacrifaced...

this pain will make u into what u manifest yourself into bein...

BEAST...FREAK...MONSTER...ANIMAL...

the pain creates the seed for such and is grows from more pain...

the pain u have when u have to wait for your time..

but u don't think about that...

u just train...

that's all there is left to do...

you hate to wait...but u must....

u can only control what's within your ability to control..

to control the DARK RAGE...

to not let the PAIN overtake you..

use it as fuel against the iron...

use it to be somethin others fear u would become...

and then...evolve

it never ends...

this pain u have..that fuels the DARK RAGE

its also a curse...

cause u know what need to be sacrifaced to get to the next level...

cause u know u do whatever it takes

to get that number that's burned into your head

no matter what...

and nothin will stop u...

for u know the pain continues to grow

to achieve the goal your after...

and with this pain

you'll find another challenge that calls you out..

it never ends...

so take it as such...

this pain u have...that fuels the DARK RAGE...

will make u force to be reckoned with..

cause this pain will lead u to do incredible things most mortals can't

this pain will lead u to "dark" place or places...

but again...u know u have to do whatever it takes

no matter the struggle...

cause this pain will make u stronger...

this pain is something that warriors are made of...

u find out others who share this pain...

but it only causes it to grow even more...

again..u embrace it...

because this pain makes u into a different breed of a lifter

beyond what mortals can comprehend..

what is this pain that fuels the DARK RAGE?

look into your mirror...

its who u are...

TB

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PLANET RAGE: POSSESSED....


u survived the battle...

the war isn't over

but u know what the war is really about

its against the iron...and only the iron

nothin else matters

not feelings...

not emotions...

not people...

just the iron

what caused this insight?

knowin that every moment brings u closer to bein

consumed by that DARK RAGE...

it enveloped me for a moment...

for this has happened once...

causing me to go out of control...

then

i found the focus for thy rage...

seein the true mission that lies ahead...

lettin what doesn't matter get in the way...

keep in mind...killin egos is what

serves the hunger of the beast within...

but winning the war against the iron is what

serves the dark rage within...

but because of this fight...the dark rage has been turned on....

now is the time to harness it...and control it

before it controls me...or has it already?

does bein possessed by rage make a man dangerous?

yes...for he has nothin to lose..

for thy dark rage has taken hold...

rage is nothin without it bein harnessed

with this...nothin will stand in my way...not even failure

it may stop some...but not i

some may still fear what u will become...

but that's not your ONLY and not FIRST mission

your mission involves the iron first...never second..

fuck those who want to see u fall

and those who will kick u when your down...

let that light a fire that fuels that dark rage...

heed the creed...for it will show u the path...

and let the dark rage possesses u

revel in it...

and you'll find yourself

becomin what many fear u will become

doin what u thought wouldn't be possible...

u won't fear defeat...

for it only makes u stronger

never lose focus...

and you'll emerge from the war against the iron...

as a bein possessed by your own dark rage within...

and to hell with anyone that stands in your way...

TB

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PLANET RAGE: DARK RAGE REPOST...


I can only ask myself these questions. Why does this Dark Rage consume me. Why does it cause me pain. Why did THE DARK RAGE choose me as THE CHOSEN ONE. Why did it choose me to be the bearer of this Rage. I may never know and I might not ever want to know. However it gives me great power and strength for the wieghtroom. The wieghtroom is my lair, my home, my job, and my duty. It is as if THE DARK RAGE wants me to be THE CHOSEN ONE. In what I do not know, but soon I'll find out. And if I fail this DARK RAGE, it will surley kill me off. It gives me so much anger, hate and many other things I cannot discribe. However I will not fail at whatever it is I'm chosen for. THE DARK RAGE consumes me, fuels me, it does not stop. It pulses through my vains every second. So whoever trys to stop me from my job at hand, they will become victims of my DESTRUCTION. You see many of my friends dont know the pain that I'm going through. Whenever they see me they look into my eyes and see only what they want to see. They do not dare know whats causing me to be this way. They fear me. In their hearts they know I've changed, but into what. Thats the question thats been in their heart. They know I'll never be the same. They know I've let something transform me into what they did not want me to be. But they do not know what it is, until now. They fear me now because of this. I just have to say, eventually THE DARK RAGE will kill me. It may be soon, but everybody dies. I'd like to tell my friends when that day comes try to remember me as the good guy. I know I've changed but I had to.I do not want to dwell on the past anymore. It was the path I have chosen and the dark rage chose me. But I tell you my friends do not ever give in to THE DARK RAGE like I did. It will always linger overhead and will shove fear in your face but do not give in to it. You may ask me why did the dark rage chose me instead of someone else, again I dont know the answer to that. But for know all I know is that I'm KING of THE DARK RAGE. It will eventually transform me into a much greater being. It will transform me into a MONSTER, a MACHINE, a BEAST. My friends if you only knew the pain that dwells withen me, you would understand, but you never will. One day the rage will build to such a high extent I will never be able to handle it and thats the day I will die. But my friends if you will, remember me as the good person you knew before all this happened, when I'm gone. Please do this for me. - Andy "The Beast" Heflin

TB

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PLANET RAGE: THE VOICES...


u hear them....

the voices...

the speak words to u all the time...

"u ain't shit"

"your a damn pussy"

"talk to me when your hittin some real weight"

"ur a nobody"

"i fuckin own you, son!"

"your my bitch on the platform"

"u don't stand a fuckin chance"

"u can't do this shit"

"u can't beat me!"

"you can't do it!"

"you don't want it!"

"your fuckin weak!"

"you can't handle that!"

its these voices u hear...

where do u hear them?

they seem to be heard more and more at the asylum known as the gym...

are they in your head?

yes they are?

are they comin from people or from the iron...

mostly...its comin from the iron...

it talks to ya..

these words come from people...

but those words ends up comin from the iron itself in the end...

its the real equalizer...not mere mortals

these voices is what feeds the DARK RAGE...

voices of your own PAIN...that echoes

every set...

every rep...

it never stops...

but like the pain...u embrace it...

u let it cause an eruption...

the eruption known as the DARK RAGE...

and before u know it...you'll hear yourself talkin back to the iron

but the voices doesn't end...it continues to grow and grow

are u psycho?

no we all are...cause we all hear THE VOICES...

its there the moment u set foot into the gym...

until the moment u leave the gym...

your ruled by these voices and driven by them...

cause its the will of your DARK RAGE...

these voices will make u into something that many fear u will become...

these voices will drive u to do insane and psychotic things

that mere mortals won't comprehend...nor understand...nor can do...

and your never complacent for the VOICES will remind you...

of your mission...

and your weakness...

a reminder of the question...

"what is this pain that fuels the DARK RAGE?"

that reminder will forever keep the voices talking...

yes...these voices

these voices that have no mortal form...

that u give power to...

that will push u to levels that u never thought would be possible

that will take u to places that you've never been

that will have u cross lines that u think didn't exist

yes...these voices are doin that...

if your not hear these voices...

your not alive..

your not a lifter...

every lifters has these voices that torment..

torture...

and sometimes enrage

every lifter hears these voices when they are on the sidelines..

they unleash their torment and torture...

making thy RAGE grow and grow

making the lifter almost insane...

but from that...u enjoy the insanity...

the pain...

u also enjoy the voices tauntin u

wantin more..

these voices sometimes come from people...

but in the end...they are only fueling these voices

that seemingly come from the iron

thus makin them even stronger...

the pain they cause is incredible...

the voices are there when u miss a rep

"your fuckin weak!"

they are there when your partner does more than you...

"he's gettin stronger than you!"

they are there when bomb at a meet

"you just couldn't fuckin do it!"

they are there when u miss a session

"someone is training to be stronger than you"

they are there when u see your competition

"your goin to get owned!"

they are there when your approachin the bar

"you can't do this!"

they are even there when u drop weight

"your goin to get fuckin crushed!"

and thru its mental assaults..

you'll find out that the voices aren't comin from the iron

but how do u respond to these voices?

u don't

u defy those voices thru your actions

and its hearin these voices that causes u to do the invetiable

hearin these voices causes u to shake with power and rage

spewing from your veins...

even causes u to roar like a warrior

and allows u the strength to unleash HELL!

and then...emerge and to give those voices the "F-U"

but...like a everlasting war...it doesn't stop...they continue...

mortals will look at you...

but they don't know

the pain u have inside...the voices that speak to u...

what is are these VOICES that speak to you?

the one thing that is workin to overtake you...

the darkside...

u know it as

the DARK RAGE!

may u have mercy on yourself...cause the dark rage won't..

TB

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I’m not like everyone else, born different without a home,
No one like me, no one can see, I’m all alone.

I hide what I am and who I came to be,
If you knew the truth you too would hate me.

You have no idea what lies inside me,
If you did, friends no more would you be.

I walk among you an ugly wolf in beautiful sheep’s clothing,
I look deep into the mirror but I can not stop this painful self loathing.

I am a monstrosity, a freak amongst the pure,
You believe I am diseased, you need to find the cure.

Pain, anger and agony, why must this always be?
No longer can I contain the animal within me.

Why must this life torment me so?
Will true happiness ever find me? I don’t know.

I seek and I search wanting to destroy,
But that which I hate lies within this boy.

I cry out unsure of the truth of my own name,
The source of my strength and weakness are one and the same.

How can I win this war, conquer this enemy?
Perhaps the reality is…….it’s me versus me.
-MATT KROCZALESKI

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RAGING ENGINE

As u approach the gym...u get your mindset on what u need to do. You first think about what your goal is...and how your goin to bring yourself closer to that goal with your session...then u think about the numbers...and u tell yourself, this is what i want to do. As u fuel yourself with the fire of the dark rage, u become a fuckin engine...ready to mow down some fuckin PRs!

this is the mindset i have every session i go into the gym. my partner is of the same way. this mindset helps out outside of the gym too. it teaches u to not let up on something if u want it bad enough. anyone can be a powerlifter with the proper mindset. it doesn't matter if your "badass" enough to take on a 700lb bench if u don't have the raging engine within to back it up. without that, u won't have what it takes to get there. there are people i know that if they got this mindset, they would be hard to stop...but they don't see that. maybe this blog can help with that.

take a look in the mirror...what do u see? do u see physical strength? inner rage? or both? to me...i see both...the power that resides within and without....and that in itself motivates me towards my goal in the gym and on the platform. then ask yourself...do i have a gift? do i want to be what people want me to be or become something that many fear i will become? this is the question i ask myself everyday that pushes me harder. i dont want to be what people want me to be...

"Let a man use his own dark rage to evolve into what many fear he will become."

think about that...rage alone will drive the engine within...and u will achieve things that many think is not possible. all of us have a "gift"...what that gift is not for me to say nor tell...only for u to discover for yourself. when u do, that's when the dark rage is born...its born from the gift that all of us possess. without that, u might as well not be breathing. when u discover it, the dark rage will give fuel to that raging engine within...cause now u have a goal...a path...a direction...and a mindset.

people in the gym see u differently because now u have a mission. a man on a mission is always finding ways to be stronger and bigger...and not letting nuthin stop him on his quest. obstacles are just things that will make u stronger...nuthin else. u never sleep...and your never at rest...your always at work cause your always focused. that focus is that raging engine within. the one that allows u to break PRs and become stronger every week and your never broken! period! and u always have a plan. i told one of my good friends that "devastation is maximized when chaos is planned!". even the raging engine needs direction...

some people many not believe in your goal but that's fine...it only fuels that dark rage and pushes that engine further! and some will believe in u...that fuels it even more so! drive and focus is what is all about...its what the raging engine is. without those two things, your a man without a mission and every man has to have one to give purpose to and why they do what they do. i chose my lifters based off drive and focus. with those two things they have the raging engine...and in time their strength will come to surprise many. strength is nuthin without a engine driving it and with that engine u become what at times u thought wasn't possible...and that's up to u! don't settle for what's normal or what many have done...strive to do what many cannot do or haven't done..that's where u make your mark...that's what the dark rage demands...and that's what drives your raging engine within...

with this raging engine, everything and everyone keep that engine goin thru the dark rage...nuthin will let it die unless U do! and the only way it will die is if u give up the mission before completing it...thus regret. keep that dark rage burning bright...even in blackest night. so u go thru relationships, jobs, family problems, etc.. cause u know when u set foot in the gym or the platform, none of that shit matters...what u do then will echo for eternity...pain...suffering...hearteache.....stress...can't let it stop you. u have to keep truckin along cause u know this is what your meant to do...what the dark rage within u desires...

so the next time u go to the gym, take a look around...u see your one of the few if not the only one that has this raging engine. if u belong to a barbell club, you'll find out that raging engine feeds off the raging engine of others with the same goal...same mission. surround yourself with those people..those who will not let u lose focus and drive of the mission...the mission of the numbers...find those who share that and feed off of it. i do this all this time with my "circle of brothers"...and they know who they are. they keep me honest and keep me on the path...the mission...and i feed off of them cause they possess the raging engine as well. if u find that your the only one, do what u gotta do to be around those who do. the raging engine will drive u to do what u have to do to meet those numbers...that goal...that mission...see the "lifters' creed"...and sometimes with this engine...u motivate others to do the same...u become a source of inspiration and motivation...this in turn feeds your own engine as u know your doin somethin...people are motivated and inspired by those who are simply driven and focused...they may not have the numbers yet but they damn sure have the drive and focus for it...the engine can make beasts out of freaks and monsters out of animals...they do away with bein a "man" to be something far greater than themselves...again...bein something that many fear/hate that u would become...

and when u look around the gym...look at the mirror at yourself and ask yourself these 2 questions...the questions that will let u know if u possess this engine or not....do i have a gift? do i want to be what people want me to be or become something that many fear i will become?

the raging engine will make u into what many fear u will become...

TB

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PLANET RAGE: RESPECT II




I see this all the time...as a matter of fact i've seen it here a lot. People like to talk, talk, and talk some more. I'm still dealin with it myself as I know many of you readin this are as well. This goes back to my earlier post.."mark of the beast"...

this is what i can say..."fuck 'em"! u know who i'm talkin about...those big mouths who do nuthin but judge who u are and what your doin in the gym. if they can't contribute to nuthin else other than usin their big mouths to show everyone how much they can talk, put them on your shit list and move on. just remember them when your on your way to the top of those u need to shit on...

they won't be doin much talkin when they don't see u comin from behind placing your hand on their shoulder saying.."your ass is mine!"...just remember that...your stronger than them...i'm stronger than them...and we aren't just talkin strength here. you'll do more than them and the best part is that they won't even see it comin...

u don't need respect from this guys. just because they are stronger than you and/or doin somethin doesn't mean they are right. they should be wantin to help...not slap your pride around. this sport of powerlifting is one that is constantly humblin one every year. in this sport, not one man can make it to the top alone..he has to have allies/friends/brothers. those who do respect on what your doin and willing to help.

my bro, Gavin, made a post on his page about this and i have to agree with every word of it! so how do u go about gettin it? easy....don't worry about it. your liftin itself as well as your heart, drive, determination and dedication will speak volumes on the platform or on stage or in competition. u have to push yourself harder than everyone else and more than those who are talkin shit. keep in the back of your mind, while they are runnin their mouths your learning, evolving, and training harder than them...use what they say as fire. sacriface what they aren't...or saciface more! don't respect what their doin..but respect their lifts. be the bigger man. if they don't have lifts, they don't fuckin exist...tell them to do some liftin and give them the bird...cause with all what they are doin, they aren't helpin those they should be helpin...responsibility towards those who look up to them. bein an asshole...don't be like them...

lift for yourself...no one else...i made this mistake months ago and learning it now...and now i'm not goin to be bothered by those same ass clowns anymore. i'll respect their liftin...but until they show they aren't nuthin special than anyone else and realize that they are just like everyone else...i'll respect THEM. and for those who don't have "lifts", when i see the four traits i described above in them, they don't exist. until then, all of the above shouldn't open their mouths cause they are embarassing themselves. i won't talk to them and neither should u. they don't help you and hold u down...keep rising and respect will be given to u and they have to respect what your doin...if they can't do that...add them to your shit list and move on and don't associate yourself with them.

i'm not goin to lie...sometimes u have to just go and take your respect when the time comes to take it. this should be your attitude. "don't demand nuthin...just take it!". this includes respect...numbers won't be given to you and neither will respect. and in any sport when your not known, all u have is respect.

so what have we learned here...that respect in time will be given or you'll have to take it. in most cases, you'll have to take it. don't waste your time with those who want to run their mouths and talk with those who see that your willing to learn and evolve...i'll sum this up with what Gavin said in his post...

"So when you show my you have that kind of drive, when you show me that you can respect what I do. . .then we can talk. Until then, don't open your mouth. I am stronger then you, I will always be, and until you can do my weight, my way, respect."

this is the truth...for those who post on vid and post up retarded comments when they haven't done shit themselves. for those who have "done somethin" and do nuthin but show they have big mouths...remember that quote from Gavin when u see this in your own stuff...and move on...

remember...

ONLY THE IRON CAN JUDGE YOU!

TB

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PLANET RAGE: CHAOTIC STORM


its around you...

the daily stress from day to day shit...

the dark clouds surround you...

the thunder quakes about...

its the storm that's brewing within

fueled by the dark rage

u step into the gym

mere mortals see something in your eyes

its determination...

drive...

dedication...

discipline...

and RAGE..

they know u can't be stopped so

they don't stand in your way

u get dressed

u prepare for the hell your about to bring

then u walk out into the gym

the DARK RAGE has captured hold of you..

others see it in your eyes...

they don't talk to you

as your focused on unleashing hell upon the iron

all the trial and tribulations of day to day are nonexistent..

but u prepare to put it all on the iron

the iron that is taunting u so...

callin you out...

testing your manhood..

u approach the cage

the one thing that can contain this rage u have

many who see u coming

quickly move as u approach your destination..

and hope the gym can survive the storm your about to bring

but your CHAOS is focused...

controlled...

to maximize devastation..

every warmup set it is a buildup

an loud crack of thunder that is about to whip out of the air

by the slamming of plates

somedays its just a storm

but always its a hurricane...

bringin true chaos about

as u approach your "demon"...

u mentally prepare

to unleash the full fury of this chaotic storm called

RAGE..

and with one explosion of power

burst of strength

and

the roar of a beast

you do it.

but not once

u do it again

but with more weight

the devastation piles up

in the end...

u stand in the wake of the

chaotic storm u caused

with this beast knowin as the cage.

others stand

watch

wondering what kind of human

would unleash such a RAGE

u stand lookin at the weight

spittin in the face of the tormenting iron

tellin it that it as lost today's battle

but the war isn't over

and

you...bein PURE CHAOS personified...

will return to wage battle once more...

for ONLY THE IRON CAN JUDGE YOU

and

ONLY THE DARK RAGE CAN OVERTAKE YOU...

there is no peace...

only war...

there is no calm

only the chaotic storm...

look at the mirror...

the power within

your the beast who

is the storm...

TB

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THE UNSEEN...

i'm talkin to you...

the one who thinks that your stronger than me...

the one who dares to call me out...

the one i'm goin to reveal my true self to...

because u don't see.."the unseen"..

what's that?

the unseen?

what is it?

its the one thing u don't expect me to have

the one thing u neglect

what u see is a man

a man like yourself...

your wrong...

what's unseen is that i'm more than a man...

i'm shedding the chains of man to become something

something that isn't seen to u

something that u fear...

what's unseen to you is the power that lies within

the type that isn't seen until its too late...

what's unseen to you is the RAGE...

the dark rage that will overtake a normal man...

and crush him

what's unseen to you is what i will go thru

to achive my goal...

even if it means running thru you like gas thru a funnel

i will do it...

what's unseen to you is that your words only make me

stronger..

which is your mistake...

what's unseen to you is what u have seen

to what u may think...

isn't what u see

this world is full of deception...

this person your lookin at is no different...

he isn't a man..

what is he then?

a BEAST...an ANIMAL...a MONSTER...a FREAK...

that's the unseen...

he will reveal his true face

and u won't stop what's coming..

what's unseen to you is my pain threshold...

thru every bit of pain i experience...

i only grow stronger...

and thru every pain i experience...

i enjoy every bit of it...

cause i feed off of it like a beast that hungers

for bloody meat...

what's unseen is my intensity...

i won't give up..

i won't quit..

i will spit blood...

i will drop liters of sweat

i will scrape and pull skin

i will put myself thru immense pain..

just to accomplish my goal..

i won't be broken

only be made stronger...

what's unseen is the dark rage within that drive me...

it pushes me to do things...

bad things against the iron...

cause it demands it...

and i can't control it...

only contain it..

and it crushes those who stand against...

a man possessed...

what's unseen to you is what i'm capable of?

u gauge me off of what a man can do

but u fail to see i'm more than that...

my strength will surpass you

my rage will crush you..

and u will be broken...

what's unseen to you is the world of hurt

your goin to be in?

i'm not just talkin physical...mental as well

i've been thru physical and mental hell...

what u can do to pales in comparison

i'm prepared to unleash hell...

and u just gave me the motivation to do so...

what's unseen is evitiable...

there is a lot u don't see...

but that's fine...

cause u won't see "the unseen"

thy juggernaut...

until i'm backed into a corner...

that's when it will all come to light...

that's when everything i foretold comes true..

that's when the unseen becomes the truth to you...

and how much u just fucked up...

the combination of dark rage and strength

like a car sittin on the tracks of a frieght train

comin at the speed of light...

u won't see it comin...

then you'll realize what this "unseen" is...

its my

RAGE!

enjoy the pain!

TB

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THE HERO


who is he?

is the lifter that u see in the gym...

all the time...any time...

liftin the iron like he breathes...

who is he?

a lifter who dares to be different

different from the norm...

and he's not like everyone...

who is he?

he's a lifter that many who look for motivation

look up to...

he's a lifter that many dispise because of what he is...

a freak...an animal...a monster...a beast...

who is he?

he sometimes is alone...

but walks with many on the same path...

he's no different from anyone else

he just has that burning RAGE within...

who is he?

he is the underdog nobody notices..

he possesses the "unseen"

he's the beast that trains in his basement...

who is he?

he's a lifter who learns from failure

and let it make him stronger...

he's a lifter that takes winning as a

reason to train even harder...

he's a lifter who doesn't know when to quit

who is he?

he's a lifter who's power resides within

he does things that most aren't...

he motivates those who are motivated..

who is he?

he is a lifter who goes thru his own pain

who is possessed by the RAGE

and lets it forge him into something...

who is he?

he has determination...

drive...

discipline...

and dedication...

he is humble in his own strength...

but isn't afraid of a challenge...

who is he?

he doesn't fight for what is his to take

he demands not what is his to take

he just fuckin takes it...

no question asked...

and he takes it like it belonged to him..

who is he?

he's a lifter who is motivated by others...

others he admires...

others he calls "heroes"...

who is he?

he has scars...

mentally and physically

from the countless battles

and yet he remains intact

as if he was a human juggernaut...

that no one can stop...

who is he?

he is a lifter that does what he has to do

for his mission is neverending...

he knows the dangers and pitfalls

and isn't afraid

and doesn't fear no numbers...

no plate...

no man...

who is he?

he makes the weak tremble

he motivates the strong

so the strong can motivate him even more

he feeds of negativity

and lets him become what many fear he will become...

who is he?

he is a lifter who lives 2 lives

one in the gym

one outside of the gym..

who is he?

he is from a "different" planet

but isn't alone for he is one of many

those who are fightin the war against the IRON

who is he...

its not a reflection...

you know who he is...

u see him everyday...

if u only look into the mirror...

TB

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THE ENDLESS FIGHT...


u never quit...

no matter how hard u want to try

u can't

this game is neverending...

your never complacent...

for every new plateau that is broken

another stands before you...

it never stops...

the fire never dies

and u never quit

when u fight for so long

and so hard

quitting isn't in your vocabulary...

u just try harder

and u become that much stronger

mind and body...

for every record that is broken

another record is made to be broken

u can't quit

this is what u do

this is what u are

so u keep fighting

and fighting

and fighting

because your becomin more than just a mere man...

look into the mirror...

u know more than most what your becomin..

and its because of the

endless fight

u never give up...

if u fail..

it only makes u stronger

u won't allow it to break you

the fight

it never ends

blood, sweat and tears...

and the pain...

u never stop..

u lift the iron like u breathe...

to stop means to die

u can turn away from the iron

but as always

it calls u back

that undying taunt

that "what if"..

wantin u to fight once more...

to endure the pain, the sweat, and the blood

that u enjoy so much...

no matter what

your never complacent

your heart never is

your wantin to be the strongest...

the standards as such changes

like the day...

so your fight never ends

u must keep the fight

its not the size of the dog in the fight...

its the size of the fight in the dog...

that wins the war...

TB
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PLANET RAGE: JUGGERNAUTS I


my brother of destruction, BRINGER, made this comment in my log on my forum just to remind me of who and what i am after that blog post i made this weekend...sets that fire once more... he mad this comment in reference to his post-surgery training and shoulder issues...thanx steve...u don't know how much i needed to hear this:


THE BRINGER wrote:

being a fellow brother of destruction, we can't let shit stop us. just gotta keep movin through those road blocks and have the mindset that we can only be contained for a moment but not ever can we be stopped. me and you both are a different breed, we're not like the normal humans on this planet. hell all of us are fuckin warriors sacrificing blood, guts, sweat, and tears everytime we battle against the iron. but sooner or later, we always win, just because thats the way we're built. not everyone can handle the stress or hardships we have to carry, we're the only ones strong enough to survive it and keep on going. like the juggernauts we are, we will prevail against all that tries to stand in our way.

now armed with these words, i'm preparing to unleash hell on the iron and anyone that stands in my way....the brothers of destruction are fuckin back!

like juggernauts indeed

TB

PLANET RAGE: JUGGERNAUTS II


JUGGERNAUTS...

what are they?

where do they come from?

how do they evolve?

they are beings above normal...

who do things that aren't mediocre...

but above the normal...

they shed the skin of man

to become not a beast

but a destroyer...

they sacriface much

to be who they are...

they are a different breed

they seek that which is impossible

and it makes them who they are...

nuthin stops them...

gettin in their way means

devastation

they are destroyers..

they eliminate barriers

mow down obstacles..

revel in pain and blood

just for pure enjoyment

they laugh at those who doubt them

they constantly eliminate the weak

to make room for the strong

nuthin less than victory

will satisfy a destroyer...

they are men possessed

on a mission

a mission that only a few can understand..

and they do what they must

to accomplish that mission

what fuels these destroyers of iron?

pure and untamed RAGE!

that ever burning desire to be the best

the strongest

everyday

again, nuthin stops them

not words

not pain

not numbers

not even the silver beast known as the IRON..

they may fail..

but they won't give up...

eventually they will win

and

something will be destroyed..

they intimidate the weak

stress and hardships they endure

makes them stronger

gives them even more

momentuem..

making them even more unstoppable...

they were made for such

blood

sweat

tears

pain

guts..

sacriface

all are the prices they pay

to be who they are

to evolve what most fear

they will become..

warriors unbound

beasts without fear

different breed of lifter

born of the DARK RAGE within...

to unleash hell

and drive thru the pain

to leave devastation

in their wake...

their MARK..

that they have

conquered...

and yet

will not be satisfied

always hungry for more

more destruction...

they are

JUGGERNAUTS...

they will prevail against

those who stand in their way..

and have no mercy...

BEWARE!

TB

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THE AWAKENING


it starts out with a challenge...

one bold statement that goes against who u are...

challenges what u do...

challenges your honor

your pride

your strength

but u still face it without fear..

u take it on as if its another day at the gym...

unknownst to u or the challenger is that

something within is about to awake..

its within all of us...

that beast that dwells within...

clawing just to come out...

u know...

the right words

pushing the "right" button

gettin backed into that corner...

again...u are not aware of this...

but u feed this beast

the pure DARK RAGE...

the pain of the possessed man

who's true power is a hidden dark well...

without end...

and it gets stronger...

but u remain the same...

the calm before the storm...

and like the storm...

the eruption of rage

will release the untamed beast

the challenger has no idea

he has no clue

that your about to take his soul..

and he is powerless against this...

for he cannot stop for what he has brought forth...

for its the very thing u need

the very thing u live for

he has made the mistake of annoying the caged animal...

and now he has to deal with its claws...

for he is hungry...

the unsealing of hidden strengths

the awakening of the dark rage

much like pandora's box

waitin to wreak havoc and chaos

on the one who challenges u...

u cannot control this awakening...

it possesses u..

it takesover...

thy beast

chanting the words..

"you don't know how to use your power...

LET ME SHOW U!"

cause one thing that is true...

the weak become food for the strong...

so the challenger must become food at

the beasts' hour of feasting...

but this is all this is fortold...

like a psychic that tells the future...

rattle the cage of the beast

and the challenger will have to feel the wrath of his rage...

for the time has come for u to awaken the beast...

to awaken the hidden strengths...

to awaken your "true" self...

the "true" self many are fearing u would become...

and no mercy to those who stand before this train...

for its the time of

THE AWAKENING...

may those be broken who try to stop this...

TB

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VICIOUS CYCLE OF RAGE


it never ends...

the pain...

the voices...

the possession...

the dark visions...

it continues...

with every passing show...

or with every passing meet...

it starts over again

why does this cycle always occur?

because it has to...

win...lose...or draw...

the cycle of rage will occur

this is how it starts...

it starts with a thought...

a thought of success

AND the thought of failure...

they are like positive and negative...

causing the rage to spark between..

thrill of success and the fear of failure...

it drives us all...

no one is protected against it...

redemption...revenge...vendetta...

words of poison...

and like it...it will "force" u to become something...

no...

evolve into something many fear u would become...

into something that u, yourself, didn't think was possible...

then from those thoughts...comes the challenge...

the challenge against the voices...

doubting you...scaring you...punking you...

tellin you that it isn't possible...

that your jokin yourself...

that your wasting your time...

do u take this challenge?

to be mentally broken only to be mentally stronger?

to sacriface pride in order to oppose those voices?

then u take that challenge

and begin the battle plan

to continue the war against the DARK RAGE within..

for it every session...

gets stronger

and u must get stronger to fight it...

this dark rage will forge u into what many cannot comprehend...

and like callouses, they grow stronger..

only to be punished further...

a whole cycle of this will occur...

the constant fight against the dark rage

the constant raising of the fist against the voices...

the increasing power of the pain..

as you become a man possessed by the dark rage...

empowered by the constant visions of fear...

but u don't run...

u realize that u must confront them all

because...

no one can stand in your path...

those that dare to...have no mercy on them...

u know what must be done...

what u must go thru...

the daily routines...

the job...

the cost...

the fears...

the sacrifaces...again...

is what this plan involves...

for there is no way out...

and at the end of this cycle...

the completion of this plan...

u will meet success...

or u will meet failure...

these visions u first saw

that drove this vicious cycle in the beginning

with success, there is a higher challenge awaitng in the wings

that u WILL accept...for its what the dark rage demands...

with failure...there is feelin of vengeance and redemption...

that awaits you...

accepting this pain will be what the dark rage demands...

so u MUST accept...

there is no middle ground...

its do or die...

and thus this cycle begins again...anew...

this vicious cycle

this cycle of rage fueled by your own dark rage...

a dark rage fueled by your own pain

your own fears

your own voices

do u see it?

u give this cycle power...

thus your doin what most puny humans...mortals

are not willing to

to let a man use his own dark rage...

to evolve into what many fear he will become...

and thru this vicious cycle...he will continue to evolve...

into what the dark rage demands...

into what his heart desires the most...

CYCLE OF RAGE...

are u ready?

TB

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I'M NOT LIKE YOU REPOST


this is a repost from matt kroczaleski's log on elitefts...


I'm not like everyone else, born different without a home,
No one like me, no one can see, I'm all alone.

I hide what I am and who I came to be,
If you knew the truth you too would hate me.

You have no idea what lies inside me,
If you did, friends no more would you be.

I walk among you an ugly wolf in beautiful sheep's clothing,
I look deep into the mirror but I can not stop this painful self loathing.

I am a monstrosity, a freak amongst the pure,
You believe I am diseased, you need to find the cure.

Pain, anger and agony, why must this always be?
No longer can I contain the animal within me.

Why must this life torment me so?
Will true happiness ever find me? I don't know.

I seek and I search wanting to destroy,
But that which I hate lies within this boy.

I cry out unsure of the truth of my own name,
The source of my strength and weakness are one and the same.

How can I win this war, conquer this enemy?
Perhaps the reality is…….it's me versus me.

-MATT KROCZALESKI- WPO POWERLIFTER

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INNER RAGE


where does it come from? it comes from a lot of places...but i can think of only one...

the rage that i felt when i wasn't "deemed" worthy to train with them...and i was deserted and didn't get any support...

the rage that i felt when a good lifter gets dropped just because he isn't up to snuff...

the rage that i felt when a couple of guys think that they are better than anyone else

the rage that i felt everytime i see their numbers and they claim they are ready for the next level...when in fact they aren't...

the rage that i felt when they claim they are goin to have the biggest totals out of the whole meet...

the rage that i felt when they had the nerve to call out another lifter when they haven't done shit themselves

the rage i felt when another lifter...a friend...feels like he's being underestimated...and is stronger than they know...

the rage i felt when i see the halfass shit they are doin

the rage i felt when they are doin shit as if they are the first ones to do it...

the rage i felt when i didn't get any respect for the lifts done...

the rage i felt when my guys are workin their ass of and to just get hated on..

the rage i felt when i knew that we're bein underestimated and doubted....

they are making a big fuckin mistake...

they have no idea on the amount of rage i...we can bring...

they haven't seen RAGE yet...i promise you. they haven't!

i...we..will show them shit they haven't seen...

then we will make them pay for doubtin me...my guys...

egos will be broken...prides will be taken...i know all about losing pride...i had it happen before and it made me who i am now...

they want to doubt me...my guys...fuck 'em...

they don't want to give us respect...fuck 'em..

we'll just fuckin take it in march...

they want to pretend they are the shit...go ahead...for they have no idea what's comin...the ass-raping that they are about to recieve...

AND then we'll show them what the next level is all about...

...and after all that is said and done...they realize two things...one...that they made a mistake in doubtin us and two...that u can't teach badass in the gym...

again...RAGE...they haven't seen shit yet.

TB

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THE INTRUDER/THE ONE


I AM THE INTRUDER...

who am i...i am the intruder...

i am the one who u don't now

the one u want to ignore...

the one u deny exist

the one who haunts your the darkest areas of your house...

i am the one u fear the most...

i step onto your platform...unknownst to you

like it my own

i don't demand...i just take...

i don't talk...i just do liftin

people know who u are...but they wonder who i am...

the one who stands against u...

the one who shows no fear

the one who takes pride in destroying egos like yours

the one who revels in pain

the one who enjoys the sight of blood

i terrify you..

i'm what makes u tremble at nite...

who is the intruder?

the one who walks into the gym with on a mission

a mission of destruction and devastation

the one who embraces the DARK RAGE within

the one who knows that pushin the limits of one's body will truly show what one is capable of...

what one will become...that which many fear

the one comes after your records...

the numbers you've set...

and raises the standards

the one who does the same meet that u do...

just so one can test himself and use u as a measure

the one who steps onto your platform like its not yours and belongs to the one

the one who does things that your afraid to do...

the one who questions your manhood and tests your composure

the one who makes the platform tremble against my might and rage

for its in its untamed nature...

the one your afraid to battle

the one who motivates his brothers to be what the one is...

and thereby pushes the one...to evolve...

again...your afraid of this...

the one who finds the strongest to make himself stronger...and makes

the strongest stronger...

the one who finds the weak and breaks them...

for they do not deserve to exist...

the one who slays giants and brings them to size

the one who does what he must to achieve his goal

no matter the path...no matter the pain...

no matter the sacriface...

the one person...u truly cannot stop

for that i truly terrify u...

what will u do?

i'll tell u...

find peace in devastation...

for that is your answer...

who am i...

THE INTRUDER!

TB

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seeds of the beast...


i decided to post this blog after the previous post about henry rollins...and how much i kinda related to him as most of us do...

the seeds of the beast was buried from a long-time ago. before i met the "IRON", i didn't know who i was or what or where i was goin. back then i was ridiculued and wasn't given the respect as a person as well nor for myself. even when i was 12, i was still a farely big guy but the kind that would a last pick for a street football game. the rage i felt back then was amazing...but i bottled it up inside for the most part. i remember gettin into a fight and completely losin myself in my own rage...i was suspended for few days but i didn't care...that fucker deserved it. it was at that point that i needed something to harness that rage...then i picked up a issue of "flex" magazine and saw a way out. my parents had a machine that they didn't use and i started using it 2-3 days a week. slowly people started to notice that i was becomin something...something they fear i would become...

it was slowly but surely i was startin to change...over the course of time it went from me wantin to look better to me wantin to be stronger. my parents invested in a weight set...my first one..100lbs when i was 13 or 14. i started liftin consisently and gettin stronger...quick. i grew out of that weight set in a little as 4 months when i was consisently addin almost all the weights i had. i had also gained the mentality too because i wouldn't let anyone in my parents' house see me workout. i started to gain respect but i had reached a point where it didn't matter anymore...all i wanted to was to get stronger, so lifted in the high school weightroom to train for the upcomin football season.

at this point i was pretty damn strong...even started havin arm wrestling contests at lunchtime and was i beatin everyone that tested me...but one guy. i took my chance at armwrestling him and for the first time, no matter how strong i was, i wasn't stronger than him for i couldn't move his arm. then when the time called for it, he brought me down with ease. at that point my goals changed...it went from wantin everyone's respect to bein strong as i fuckin wanted to be...to be stronger than that guy. come to found out, he was a powerlifter. i was interested because he didn't look any bigger than me but was obviously stronger. didn't know what i was up against until saw him in the weightroom. my best bench at the time was 205...he's was 365! the rage returned...cause now the rage came from wantin to be stronger every session, year after year. so i found out more and more about powerlifting...

i started followin the routine of craig tokarski for a while because at that time, he was the only man to bench 705 raw i believe...if not in a shirt. it didn't matter because he had done 705! that burning rage i felt that day that guy beat me was still with me cause i wanted to be that fuckin strong! then i went to a local YMCA and trained with a former powerlifter. he taught me the ropes on the sport and even gave me a ticket to the arnold classic back in 97.

now that my focus was towards just bein stronger, i didn't care what other thought of me or what they said. no one wanted to fight me or ridicule me anymore... i was at the time 16-17 years old and at 6-0, 215 and was damn proud of it. but to me it matters what u do against the iron cause we all know from experience that the iron will be the only thing that won't lie. so i started liftin with intensity and rage every session it my all and bein put thru lots of pain...it didn't matter...that rage inside of me kept growing and growing and wantin to be stronger. everytime i saw someone my age or older that was stronger than me, that would push me harder to be stronger...stronger than them. my coach talked me into doin a powerlifting meet that may of 97. it would be my first one...i went there and it was one of the best experiences of my life. the comraderie i felt and the brotherhood was different. gettin out there on the platform and showin what u got was the fuckin rush! i nailed 250 that day...but first place had done 385...seein that, i had a lot of work ahead of me...the rage continued to burn more and more just because i wanted to be that strong! so when i moved to bama, i resumed my career in the sport in 1999...and loved it ever since then cause the rage never died out...it kept growin more and more. people who didn't know me noticed that i was becomin something...something they couldn't fathom...in my high school class...i was the biggest and probably the strongest guy...and people knew that...and i liked but i was onto bigger and better things...i wanted to be the strongest...but one thing will always be a question...if i had a 2nd chance to armwrestle that guy again...how would it turn out i wonder...i guess i'll never know...

its almost 10 years later now and i look back on all that stuff and realized that the seeds of the beast was buried back when i first started to lift...and now i'm revisiting it again because i'm faced with the same doubt from others and mockery that i experience back then...but i realize now...that's all i need to keep me pushin more and more in the gym now to keep and continue always on bein stronger cause that's what my own DARK RAGE demanded. nothin short of bein the strongest will satify me. when i was in montgomery, i was considered one of the strongest guys there but i hated that...why? because only the strongest could motivate that rage within me...without that, i was stuck. so i had to look outside of my gym and found another friend who was stronger than i was and lighter in bodyweight than me. that rage returned cause i had met someone who was stronger than i was...and to this day, still is. now i'm startin to experience that all over again...cause i know that when u think your the strongest, there is always someone out there that's stronger than u lyin in wait...and its that fact that keep me pushin more and more everyday...and that keeps that rage, the seeds of the beast, growing more and more. and also, to be stronger than those who doubt me and who fear that i'm becomin something they knew i will become..that is the fuel that powers my own rage...

the seeds of the beast was planted with RAGE

TB

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Iron by Henry Rollins

I believe that the definition of definition is reinvention. To not be like your parents. To not be like your friends. To be yourself. Completely. When I was young I had no sense of myself. All I was, was a product of all the fear and humiliation I suffered. Fear of my parents. The humiliation of teachers calling me "garbage can" and telling me I'd be mowing lawns for a living. And the very real terror of my fellow students. I was threatened and beaten up for the color of my skin and my size. I was skinny and clumsy, and when others would tease me I didn't run home crying, wondering why. I knew all too well.

I was there to be antagonized. In sports I was laughed at. A spaz. I was pretty good at boxing but only because the rage that filled my every waking moment made me wild and unpredictable. I fought with some strange fury. The other boys thought I was crazy. I hated myself all the time. As stupid at it seems now, I wanted to talk like them, dress like them, carry myself with the ease of knowing that I wasn't going to get pounded in the hallway between classes. Years passed and I learned to keep it all inside.

I only talked to a few boys in my grade. Other losers. Some of them are to this day the greatest people I have ever known. Hang out with a guy who has had his head flushed down a toilet a few times, treat him with respect, and you'll find a faithful friend forever. But even with friends, school sucked. Teachers gave me hard time. I didn't think much of them either.

Then came Mr. Pepperman, my advisor. He was a powerfully built Vietnam veteran, and he was scary. No one ever talked out of turn in his class. Once one kid did and Mr. P. lifted him off the ground and pinned him to the blackboard. Mr. P. could see that I was in bad shape, and one Friday in October he asked me if I had ever worked out with weights. I told him no. He told me that I was going to take some of the money that I had saved and buy a hundred-pound set of weights at Sears. As I left his office, I started to think of things I would say to him on Monday when he asked about the weights that I was not going to buy. Still, it made me feel special. My father never really got that close to caring.

On Saturday I bought the weights, but I couldn't even drag them to my mom's car. An attendant laughed at me as he put them on a dolly. Monday came and I was called into Mr. P.'s office after school. He said that he was going to show me how to work out. He was going to put me on a program and start hitting me in the solar plexus in the hallway when I wasn't looking. When I could take the punch we wouldknow that we were getting somewhere.

At no time was I to look at myself in the mirror or tell anyone at school what I was doing. In the gym he showed me ten basic exercises. I paid more attention than I ever did in any of my classes. I didn't want to blow it. I went home that night and started right in. Weeks passed, and every once in a while Mr. P. would give me a shot and drop me in the hallway, sending my books flying. The other students didn't know what to think. More weeks passed, and I was steadily adding new weights to the bar. I could sense the power inside my body growing. I could feel it.

Right before Christmas break I was walking to class, and from out of nowhere Mr. Pepperman appeared and gave me a shot in the chest. I laughed and kept going. He said I could look at myself now. I got home and ran to the bathroom and pulled off my shirt. I saw a body, not just the shell that housed my stomach and my heart. My biceps bulged. My chest had definition. I felt strong. It was the first time I can remember having a sense of myself. I had done something and no one could ever take it away.

You couldn't say s**t to me. It took me years to fully appreciate the value of the lessons I havelearned from the Iron. I used to think that it was my adversary, that I was trying to lift that which does not want to be lifted. I waswrong. When the Iron doesn't want to come off the mat, it's the kindest thing it can do for you. If it flew up and went through the ceiling, it wouldn't teach you anything. That's the way the Iron talks to you. It tells you that the material you work with is that which you will come to resemble.

That which you work against will always work against you. It wasn't until my late twenties that I learned that by working out I had given myself a great gift. I learned that nothing good comes without work and a certain amount of pain. When I finish a set that leaves me shaking, I know more about myself. When something gets bad, I know it can't be as bad as that workout. I used to fight the pain, but recently this became clear to me: pain is not my enemy; it is my call to greatness. But when dealing with the Iron, one must be careful to interpret the pain correctly. Most injuries involving the Iron come from ego.


I once spent a few weeks lifting weight that my body wasn't ready for and spent a few months not picking up anything heavier than a fork. Try to lift what you're not prepared to and the Iron will teach you a little lesson in restraint and self-control. I have never met a truly strong person who didn't have self-respect. I think a lot of inwardly and outwardly directed contempt passes itself off as self- respect: the idea of raising yourself by stepping on someone's shoulders instead of doing it yourself. When I see guys working out for cosmetic reasons, I see vanity exposing them in the worst way, as cartoon characters, billboards for imbalance and insecurity. Strength reveals itself through character. It is the difference between bouncers who get off strong-arming people and Mr.Pepperman.

Muscle mass does not always equal strength. Strength is kindness and sensitivity. Strength is understanding that your power is both physical and emotional. That it comes from the body and the mind. And the heart. Yukio Mishima said that he could not entertain the idea of romance if he was not strong. Romance is such a strong and overwhelming passion, a weakened body cannot sustain it for long. I have some of my most romantic thoughts when I am with the Iron.

Once I was in love with a woman. I thought about her the most when the pain from a workout was racing through my body. Everything in me wanted her. So much so that sex was only a fraction of my total desire. It was the single most intense love I have ever felt, but she lived far away and I didn't see her very often. Working out was a healthy way of dealing with the loneliness.

To this day, when I work out I usually listen to ballads. I prefer to work out alone. It enables me to concentrate on the lessons that the Iron has for me. Learning about what you're made of is always time well spent, and I have found no better teacher. The Iron had taught me how to live. Life is capable of driving you out of your mind. The way it all comes down these days, it's some kind of miracle if you're not insane. People have become separated from their bodies. They are no longer whole. I see them move from their offices to their cars and on to their suburban homes. They stress out constantly, they lose sleep, they eat badly. And they behave badly. Their egos run wild; they become motivated by that which will eventually give them a massive stroke. They need the Iron Mind.

Through the years, I have combined meditation, action, and the Iron into a single strength. I believe that when the body is strong, the mind thinks strong thoughts. Time spent away from the Iron makes my mind degenerate. I wallow in a thick depression. My body shuts down my mind. The Iron is the best antidepressant I have ever found. There is no better way to fight weakness than with strength. Once the mind and body have been awakened to their true potential, it's impossible to turn back.

The Iron never lies to you. You can walk outside and listen to all kinds of talk, get told that you're a god or a total bastard. The Iron will always kick you the real deal. The Iron is the great reference point, the all-knowing perspective giver. Always there like a beacon in the pitch black. I have found the Iron to be my greatest friend. It never freaks out on me, never runs. Friends may come and go. But two hundred pounds is always two hundred pounds. " -Henry Rollins

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MARK OF THE BEAST...


when readin this blog...as with all my blogs...its to help out the lifter and learn what i learned...



there are times in our sport where u have lifters who think they have done something but really haven't done shit...



now let me just say this...i haven't done shit either. so i set a few state records...its not what i'm goin for and hell, this day and age, anyone can do that. i'll be doin something when hit a 2300 total or bench 700...whichever comes first...


yet i have those who doubt me and aren't giving me the right respect. but that's ok...i don't want their respect at all cause i know they haven't done shit either...



its frustrating at times when u help people to get into the sport and later on decide that they know more than you or they don't think they know what your talkin about and even worse is that when u don't have the numbers, the respect is even more less...what should matter should be heart and guts! the combination of the two will produce numbers in good time.



2006 was a year where i experienced this over and over again...and it killed me wantin to help other lifters but its who i am and keep doin so cause u never know who or what you know from one lifter to the next. and thinkin about those who i have helped, keep me that way. fuck those who THINK they know what their talkin about and THINK they are doin shit!



i get tired of 380lb benchers walkin up to 450lb benchers like they've done shit...that just stupid! i get tired of lifters who think they are doin shit makin the rules and havin everyone work around them like they are in the WPO or something...give me a fuckin break!



keep in mind..anyone can set state records...anyone can always place 1st when its only them in the weight class...do something no one can do or hasn't done before...then u can say your doin shit...do something or shut your mouth! dare to leave your mark where no one hasn't! guys like matt kroczaleski, jim grandick, scot mendelson, garry frank, nick winters, jeremy hoornstra, etc...u know them...they've done shit...settin the standards for the rest of us...and they are learnin from one another...



as i said before...i ain't doin shit...but that will change this year...and even then...i won't change cause i work my ass off just everyone else in this sport...and i learn from the strongest...and that can be anyone who knows something that i don't know...but nonetheless, i'm goin to DO SOMETHING this year...that's what leaving "the mark" is all about...like the lifters have done above. its not about settling for mediocre...its about what others will remember u for the most...



so if your readin this...and if your not goin to take me seriously or just doubt me...that's ok..keep talkin...i'm training my ass off to do something... and u know what...i'm not afraid to fail if i don't do it cause it won't stop me...why? cause i'm wantin to leave "the mark of the beast" somewhere in this sport...if don't believe me...well u can be like ludacris and blow it out your ass...i'm sayin this to not waste anyone's time...especially if they doubt me...or if you are doubtin someone, don't waste their time by tellin them they can't...they are tryin to do something...then...u fuckers won't have shit to say...will ya?



i'm defintely goin to continue to help those who are wantin to do the same...those who are wantin to DO SOMETHING...those who are wanting to leave a "mark" of their own...the mark of the beast! talk is cheap...and i know this already...and i'm lettin my blogs do the talkin from here on out...and i hope those who read this do the same...but leavin your own mark should motivate u always to learn from others as i have learned from others too...don't get me wrong...i'm goin to have fun while i'm at it...as it should always be because this is a sport...



so if your all about aimin for the high standards and settin them yourselves or breakin a world or national record, or just doin something that hasn't been done...then fuck the haters...they are just afraid of u bein something they fear u will become...and just keep doin what your doin...do what u want to do...what u have to do to leave your own "mark"...don't be afraid to fail too...that fire has always got to be burning...even in the darkest night...it never dies...and nothin will break you or no one OR nothing! take all that rage from those who doubt ya and who aren't takin u seriously and show them...fuckin "take" respect...don't demand shit cause as it is...i'm tired of talkin...so i'll let the numbers from here on out do it...are u?


do something or shut up and let someone else do it



TB

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THE CAGE


its where your confined too...

where u have to wait

til the next battle

agains the iron...

u pace back and forth

rattling the cage

awaitin the moment

to be unleashed

awaitin to let loose the "unseen"

u rattle the cage

hoping it will break

so u won't have to wait

to unleash your rage..

your mindset isn't right...

for its the dark rage within

that drives your strength...

the weak won't understand...

only fear it..

the "voices"

taunt u...

pissin u off...

causin u to be stronger

than u thought possible

makin the PAIN greater...

greater than u can bear

but u have to wait...

for your time to come...



what awaits for your enemies?


horror...

the fear that your becomin something they

couldn't fathom

nor understand

unleashing

unparalleled strength

unlike before

as if u were descendant of hercules himself

the carnage that

u will lie in your wake

showing that

u are a juggernant..

that cannot be stopped...

for once u step outside of your

cage...

the earth will tremble before

your might and rage

makin the heavens quake

and hell freeze..

so train

u train hard

u grow

u grow strong

u embrace

that which is the darkside of you

the part that contains the beast..

that beast

which is within a cage...

u fear no failure..

u feel no pain...

for your possessed

by your own dark rage...

that breeds the beast

within the cage...

but once

unleashed

no one will hope to

contain it...

only stand by

and watch the destruction

it leaves...

and once done

will it be caged again?

it must...

for that's how the beast lives...

and how his hunger never

ends...

so beware this animal...

choose your words wisely...

and sing your prayers...

for his rage

is

forthcoming...

and hope

that he doesn't

escape from the CAGE...

no one will be

safe..

no one...

but for now

confined to the cage

u are...

until your next feast

god help those

who stand your way...

when that cage

opens..

TB

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THE HUNGER


I FUCKIN WANT IT!

that number

it no longer scares

only excites you

on how u will

destroy it

it grows with every session

the pain that fuels the dark rage

is what's makin the hunger grow...

every plate..

every rep..

is only makin u stronger..

puny humans tremble in your wake

for u are possessed by a hunger

greater then they can

grasp..

u have a mission...

and a number

u want

to destroy...

I FUCKIN WANT IT!

the voices can taunt all they want

u know the truth

nuthin will stop you

u will

annhilate every plate

every rep

so that when it time

take on the number

the beast that u want

to devour

u will be at full strength

ready to destroy

no fear

no pain

all rage

devastation awaits..

that number doesn't stand

a fuckin chance

I FUCKIN WANT IT!

u think about it

everyday

pound after pound

it taunts you

but u taunt it back

I WILL FUCKIN OWN YOU!

knowin u intimidate it

the number fears you

the hunted

has become the fuckin hunter

the human

has become the beast

no longer limited

to what puny humans

do

the number has evolved u

no...

the hunger has evolved u

for once u tame this beast

another awaits...

it never ends

I FUCKIN WANT MORE!

your becoming what many fear..

allowin your own dark rage

to transform u

allowin the pain

to make the hunger greater

you will skullfuck

anything that exists on the bar

cause its only pissin u off

u want it bad

with every rep

every plate

that u destroy in the gym

its only for the great feast

that is come

I FUCKIN WANT IT!

until then

within the cage

your hunger continues...

powered by the dark rage

driven by the pain

it makes u a dangerous weapon

a beast of destruction

but heaven help us

when the time comes

when u step onto the platform

and lay your hands upon the number...

the beast...

u will utter the words..

I OWN YOU!

let the destruction begin...

TB

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THE DARK MILE

the weak don't walk it...

the weak talk about it

the pain

the rage

of the dark mile...

u walk it...

proudly...

and with the flames of hell in your eyes...

alone

but not to those

who walk it as well

what is this dark mile?

its the dark mile

to glory

your own journey

what lies in this mile?

pain...

blood..

sweat...

fuck the tears...

for it has no place

at the dark mile...

no mercy awaits..

you are trained here...

to become

what many fear

what many know

u will become

u become a man

possessed by the dark rage

u sit amongst humans

but u know u sit alone

they fear your darkside...

for they fear your strength...

you'll only see others

others who walk this dark mile...

this dark mile

its endless..

it never ends...

for it feeds off your desire...

the rage within..

the stronger u become

the longer the walk

the more pain

the more blood

that will be split

within this dark mile

u do what u must

to survive it

u have to..

others can try to beat u

but they will have to bleed first

to do so..

for u come from the dark mile...

u know your own darkside...

u don't speak it..

but its there

because of your walk

down the dark mile...

thru this dark mile

u cannot see your own future

its uncertain..

u cannot see the unseen

that which is within...

u fear of whats to come

and it fuckin excites you...

know u are willin

to do what it takes

to continue thru

like a warrior does

many have survived the dark mile

only to return to it once more

to become stronger

to shed the chains of man

to become the monster, animal, freak

or beast

its at the will of the dark rage

will do what it takes?

many sacrifaces have to be made

in walkin this dark mile..

this dark mile will change man

some won't understand

the words of the weak

need not apply here

only the strong CAN survive

this bit of hell..

for once u emerge

the weak will tremble

and the earth will quake...

failure is not an option...

just means more pain in hell

within the dark mile...

the dark mile

will create the beast within

the darkside...

can u own it?

u must..

its not for the faint at heart...

u will be changed

u will be stronger than u though possible..

and u will be something

many fear...

but this is what u do

this is your fuckin job..

there is no mercy here

only pain..

for u are focused

on unleashin hell...

born on with rage...

made to walk the dark mile

forged thru hell

this is who u are..

the dark mile...

will u walk it?

TB

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THE RECKONING


its comin...

the reckoning...

for everything thats done...

for everything thats said...

there is a reckoning...

no one will see what's comin...

or how it will come...

but the reckoning is comin...

the time for openin that cage...

for thy beast has been lyin in wait..

long enough...

for the time that the beast has been taunted...

toyed with...

hated on...

its about to come to a reckoning...

the wrath will be felt by all...

by the destruction of the iron

the beast has been silent...

lying in wait

for his

time

when that dreaded cage

swings open

no one will

expect

nor predict

the amount of hell

that's about to be unleashed

they will pay...

their words..

their unsufferable egos..

for

it started with one taunt...

one voice..

one challenge..

it led to the beasts'

awakening..

and now...

a reckoning..

the pain...

the blood

that will be sacrifaced

its only a fraction

of the hell

this caged animal

and his vengenace

within

will unleash..

normal humans

shelter themselves

like they would from a hurricane

to protect themselves

but there is

no protection

against the violence

of a juggernaut

the true hell bringer..

will bring forth

for the weak

had feared

this beast...

feared what it will become

but the time for fear

its too late..

the day has

come

the reckoning

the voices

still

speak a defiant tone

taunting you

daring you

but it does...

it does something to you

within

it stirs the beast

within his cage

"not yet"

you must wait

your time to bring

hell on earth

is coming

your time to show your true self

is coming

your time to unleash the strength

the kind that makes

the earth

tremble

is coming

let the voices talk

for they cannot see

the unseen..

you feel no pain

u enjoy it

you fear no failure

for after walkin the dark mile...

for bein put thru

your own hell...

nuthin scares you..

your possessed by a endless

hunger

that will unleash

hell on earth..

the reckoning

its coming...

they all will pay...

the bold ones...

the ones that dare stand

against the beast

the ones who doubt

the beasts'

rage

will be destroyed

and become

trophies

on your path to

glory

the weak..

will become skulls

underneath the beasts' feet

as he is unleashed from his

cage

nothing will survive

the vengeance of a

beast UNtamed

the blood he will spill

the bones he will crush

the steel he will bend

the souls he will take

on this reckoning...

his wrath

will be without bounds..

they'll all pay..

let heaven and hell sort'em out

WHAT'S NEXT?

whatever or whoever

will be the first

to be destroyed...

the reckoning is coming...

PREPARE FOR GLORY!

TB

=======================

REDEMPTION

every warrior fears it...

when they are unable to meet that task...

when they get owned by that number...

when the voices win...

REDEMPTION...

its ones personal hell...

laced with rage

and anger...

its ones decision...

EVOLVE...OR...DIE....

there is no between...

for its the dark rage...

that is about to consume

you completely..

taking you over...

or breaking you...

REDEMPTION...

it occurs when

the power

the strength

obtained isn't enough...

more is needed...

more blood..

more sweat...

no tears..

those are for the weak...

hell has no mercy

and neither will you

embued with fire

never possesed before

the fire that is

the dark rage

u attack the iron like

never before

like an animal

that is hungry for blood

REDEMPTION

causes man

to evolve

into what

his own dark rage

will remake him.

many that don't understand

will fear him

many that do

fear themselves

u become rage unbound

for nuthin will stop you

and those who do

will become the skulls

u crush under your feet

those who doubt you...

won't recognize you

u become pandora's box

that is the UNSEEN..

incarnate..

your eyes will burn a fiery HELL

like never before...

they will fear u...

not just by your actions...

but by what is UNSEEN...

by them

and by you...

REDEMPTION

its pain..

its suffering...

knowing that u didn't succeed

knowing the voices were right...

knowing that u showed weakness

forcing you to evolve...

to become a juggernant once more...

you are confined to the dreaded cage...

as u must wait...

be patient...

you must walk the dark mile

put yourself thru hell...

for when u emerge...

u will claim heads

and fuckin mount skulls..

but your path of

REDEMPTION

is never over...

you were reborn..

from the ashes of your former self...

shedding the chains of man

to become what u manifest yourself

into bein..

A FREAK...AN ANIMAL...A BEAST...A MONSTER..

u are a daily reminder of evolution...

like a warrior that has suffered a thousand scars...

from a thousand battles...

it heals but THE MARK is there...

reminding you of the pain

the suffering

the sacriface

the blood

u exhausted in your personal hell

known as the dark mile...

the dark rage...

will be your weapon to become

something that many fear u would

become...

the hunger within you

it has taken over

the voices will not win again..

that number...its a mere laugh to you now...

breaking you...

someone will have to bleed first to do it...

and it won't be you

or they will be broken

it will be futile

but that's fine by you...

your path to glory

is forged from the blood and skulls

of the weak...

you'll feast fine..

REDEMPTION...

many fear it..

many are broken by it

while many evolve

REDEMPTION...

when the time comes...

when its your turn...

when the dark rage is about

to overtake you...

WHAT WILL U DO?

TB

======================

DECIMATION

it happens...

everytime u step into the cage

known as the gym

u walk

as if u were walkin the dark mile

remembering

your personal hell...

the voices...

it does something to you...

it causes u to be a beast...

nuthin seems heavy

everything is light

and when something does

feel heavy

it pisses u off

on how the iron

dares challenges u

and the iron

cannot stop you.

pain..

another source of anger..

how dare your body

feel it..

glory is forged

in pain

FUCK IT!

u laugh at

the voices...

proving to them

that their words

only make u stronger

u laugh at

most numbers

normal humans

can't fathom

u laugh

as u mock

the iron

for challenging you

proving to the

iron that

there is no challenge

the beast cannot

overtake...

with his own dark rage

from every ounce of blood

pain..

the beast becomes

stronger...

u destroy

everything in your path

there is no excuse

for weakness

your becoming

what most fear...

possessed by

the dark rage..

in your eyes...

lies a beast

fangs and claws...

that hungers

for blood and meat...

DECIMATION

awaits

it awaits for those

who stand in your path

even the iron....

for its the true enemy..

it mocks you...

no matter how heavy

it becomes..

its no fuckin

challenge to you...

u will leave nuthin in

your wake

of

DECIMATION..

hell...

they haven't

seen shit yet..

as u walk thru

the cage

as fatigue sets in

the rage

overtakes you

even more

makin it possible

to be stronger

than the last

set

nobody undersands..

and when u

feel like

u cannot take on more..

u do..

its your dark rage

that demands it

your on a fuckin mission

everything is light

nuthin is heavy...

pain is temporary..

strength is forever...

therefore..

DECIMATION

is envitable...

when u leave the cage

for the

platform

to unleash hell

on earth...

to partake

in the reaping

of weak souls...

and

the destruction

of iron

what devastation

will u leave?

TB

=======================

BLACK

what happens...

when the dark rage

takes over?

what happens...

when it becomes

more than what

one man can handle?

he turns..

to the darkside

his emotions...

his thoughts...

become BLACK...

the RAGE

still there

causes

the mind

to go BLACK...

in this state...

fear doesn't exist..

nuthin feels light...

pain is a fuckin

suggestion...

RAGE becomes

a way of

fighting

thru the pain

and suffering...

u get

stronger

by the more

pain u

inflict on

yourself...

not by others...

u don't care

how much weight

is on the

bar...

u only know

how it will end

"fuck the lightweight

shit!"

u become

not a man

but a beast

hungry for

red meat...

the voices

are at their strongest here...

for its those voices

that taunt u

even more so...

they have no

limits..

for they

drive u

to a BLACK

state of mind..

its when your pushed

to where

u cannot

be pushed anymore...

its where

something is taken from you..

your pride...

its your breaking point...

but this

will prove u

to break others..

puny humans...

those who doubt u..

those who don't understand

the planet u are from...

nuthin or

no one

will break you...

they will bleed...

but will not

break you...

but will lead u to

break the impossible...

defy strength standards...

we know

that the RAGE

will shed the chains

of man

the DARKSIDE

will remake him

into

what many

fear he will become

its futile..

as an onslaught

of an hurricane

with no let up...

u will be a

caged animal..

forced to his cage...

to feed off the pain..

to embrace the

darkside...

to be what many

cannot...

to walk

the dark mile

that many

are afraid too...

to accept

BLACK

many who understand

this

fear

themselves

for the power

and strength

they possess

will make

even HELL

quake

the earth

tremble...

BLACK

will force u

cut those weak

links

to be

stronger

STRENGTH

is your only path...

the DARKSIDE

is where

u walk

BLACK

even your heart

is black

for emotions

are for the weak..

pain

is for the weak..

easy weight...

are for the weak..

BLACK

only the

strong

can survive this road..

REDEMPTION

the goal...

BLACK

doin what u

must

doin the unthinkable

impossible..

to get

the job done..

BLACK..

where no matter

what u do

the dark rage

burns hotter

the hunger

becomes greater

as if

u were

the devourer

of iron

BLACK

will remake

man..

into

an object of

chaos..

devastation...

becomin

a beast

that is always in hiding

waiting on the next head

he will mount

on his wall...

BLACK...

no colors here

no gray areas

only BLACK...

which represents...

one man's mission...

his path

of destruction

BLACK...

will take u

thru

hell and back

BLACK

will make u

into a juggernaut

a force

that cannot

be stopped

only made stronger

for those who

stand in

your path

will become

the skull and bones

u break

as u step

on them..

bein that

beast who

has the blood

and meat

of his victims

hanging

from his sharp

teeth and claws..

BLACK...

its what u will

have to

sacriface

to accomplish

your mission..

BLACK..

how many

souls will u reap..

how many

fuckin skulls

will u take...

to make

the impossible

happen?

BLACK

will u embrace

your darkside

and let the rage

overtake you..

or will it

break you?

BLACK

when there is

nuthin left

but your mission...

when your backed

into that

dark corner..

when the RAGE

still burns...

WHAT WILL BE

YOUR STATE

OF MIND?

TB

======================

THE BUSINESS...


**blog inspired by one of my heroes after watchin his vid**

my office...

is the platform...

its where i put in the work...

that pays off...

no shortage of hours..

as many as i need to get to

where i want to be...

which is the strongest...

i don't do my talkin outside the office...

u want to meet with me...

u want to challenge me...

i do it

but i do it on the platform...

i don't care how much money u make

what u do for a living...

what your status is...

or what people think of you...

or what kind of numbers u do in the gym...

what matters is what u do when u step onto the platform..

the gym is just training...

training for the job

on the platform...

talkin is cheap...

do it on the platform...

words mean nuthin there..

cause it ain't braggin

if u can back it up...

my violence is against the iron...

and it has no words...

that's the business...

that's how it should be dealt with as...

i stand and only look at the numbers...

saying nuthin...

egos i use just a fire...

then the time i will talk

will be on the platform...

that's where business is dealt with...

the gym is just training...

to put in the hours

to take care of business on the platform...

obstacles that stand in the way

get mowed...

egos who stand in the way...

get runover...

and numbers that challenge me...

get broken...

nuthin else...

action speak louder than words...

and i do my talkin on the platform...

numbers there speak

more than mere words...

that's where men are broken...

and where champions are made...

those who can't handle it...

get dealt by the business..

the business of the platform...

its what obsesses me...

drives me...

the pain within...

to be something

many fear...

i look at egos...

in sheer defiance...

knowin that when the time comes...

i won't demand shit...

i'll just take them...

i look at numbers

in sheer laughter....

knowin when the time comes...

i won't demand shit...

i'll just break them...

i'll take what was already mine...

and it won't end there...

that is the business of the platform...

when a challenge stares u in the face...

stare the fuck back...

deal with it on the platform...

nowhere else...

its a process...

u want to handle the business...

do it on the platform...

the intensity..

the strength...

the drive...

the power...

comes from how u deal with business

business that is the platform...

pain only pisses u off...

the dark rage burns within..

the business can't break u..

it will only make u stronger...

not everyday is a good day at the office...

but u keep rollin...

and let nuthin stop u...

handle your business on the platform...

before it handles u...

and then ask...

WHAT'S NEXT?

TB

===================

BLACK- FROM THE SHADOWS

ITS FROM THE

SHADOWS...

u won't see it comin...

the unseen...

the beast..

hidin in wait

full of adrenaline...

and drooling

from his teeth

at his

moment

of devastation...

its comin

bein within

these shadows...

walkin the dark mile...

in the cage...

you must have

ONE GOAL...

ONE FOCUS..

ONE DRIVE...

and

only

ONE MINDSET...

BLACK!

when it emerges..

fire will rain

from the heavens...

earth will tremble..

massive blackouts will

occur..

blood will be

in his eyes

DECIMATION follows...

it will take what

belongs to him

and

anything

that stands in his

path

will meet

DECIMATION!

many fear what

will emerge

from the shadows

nuthin will stop it...

his mindset is BLACK

cause he has one goal....

his rage

his DARK RAGE

will make

mere mortals

tremble and quake

its untamed...

u can only hope

to ask one question...

"how will i survive its wrath?"

and like the hurricane...

returns to the

shadows..

its the man

that no one

knows about

til its too late..

its the man

who u think

or thought u knew

its the man

with a darkside

that u SHOULD fear

he returns to the cage..

his dark mile

cause he's focused...

he's the man

emerging from your

worse nightmare...

that u thought

wouldn't

come true..

shattering what's

impossible

before your eyes..

he will feast

the flesh

of the fallen

to become

stronger...

and

mount their

heads

on the wall

and their teeth

around his

neck...

his pursuit of

strength

will know

no bounds

glory is a

dark path

forged thru

blood

and rage..

the man

the beast

in the shadows

knows

this best...

BLACK

is its mindset

he will have no words

only

thru his violent

display

of power

will u know

his true words...

thru the

decimation

of the IRON

and

pain

only pisses

this beast

off..

it only

makes him

stronger

from the

shadows...

this beast will

come...

no one

cannot stop

it

cause u

can't stop

what u can't

see..

possessed by

something

known as the dark

rage

no many

can understand..

he doesn't need

luck...

for he's always

prepared..

when it

emerges from

the shadows

what

decimation

will u

bare witness

to?

when he

eliminates his goal..

WHAT WILL

BE NEXT?

who is he?

what is he?

if i told u...

u will

be next!

just ask

yourself this..

when the beast

puts his

hands on your

shoulders

what will

u do?

TB

==================

THE DARK MILE: THE LIFTERS’ CREED BLACK VERSION



no one truly understands what it means to have RAGE in their hearts and a BLACK mindset...a mindset that allows them to be human juggerants...how...and what world are they from...



this world that i live in is the world i've wanted to live in



where everyday is a routine



where every training session his hardcore and ballz to the wall



where nuthin short of a PR will satify a lifter



where your heart, desire, dedication, and balls are tested



where nuthin can break u...only make u stronger...


where you check your ego and your drama at the door



u take in protein shakes so much you almost can't stand to take more...but you have to...cause u know your always on a mission...



u eat so much that u tire of eatin so much...but u know u can't stop....if u do, u stop the process of evolution of strength and size...



u don't go out as much cause u know your training come first...u also know that your friends aren't as dedicated as you are...



u allow your determination and RAGE to transform you...transformin you into what haters hate u would become...that you'll become what they fear the most...



u knowing this fact, u train harder, u put up with the daily routines, and go to work just so u can go to the gym



u look in the mirror sometimes not to admire the hard work but to realize the power that resides within...



u have one mindset....BLACK...one focus...one goal...one drive....nuthin else matters...not sponsorships, not money, not anything...just that dark desire to be the strongest...


u train smarter and harder than everyone else cause u want it more...cause u know that badasses aren't created in the gym...



in this world, your strength is what matters...not your job, not your dating issues, etc...u consistently make sacrifaces so that you can continue to evolve...



others can keep talkin shit...but really they are makin u famous..u know this and use it as fire to become what they fear u would become...



u also don't sit and wait for your time to come...u go ahead and take it! talkin is cheap...u put your money where your mouth is...and if u fail...no one feels sorry for ya...u just keep usin it to fuel the fire even more...in darkest night, your fire will continue to burn ever so bright...never dies!



in this world, rules and records are made to be broken...and so are ego...u understand this concept and u want others to break the standards u set...cause this will continue to push u harder...the evolution process doesn't stop...



u surround yourself with those who understand what "planet" your from...that understand what your goal is and are backin u 100%...u also drop those who don't know what "planet" your from...cause u know they are holdin u back...



u channel every bit of RAGE into your training and it causes u to transform into something that u wouldn't imagine possible...



u motivate and inspire those around u to visit and live the "planet" your on...so that in turn continues to fuel your fire...



u strike fear and intimidation to those who would fear what u will become...what the RAGE will transform u into...


what does this RAGE transform u into? A MONSTER...A FREAK...A BEAST...AN ANIMAL...that's up to you and only you...only you can make that choice...



for you have a BLACK mindset...this causes those who don't understand u...fear u...and those who do...fear only themselves...and the caged creature within..



but make no mistake, determination and RAGE will transform man into what he manifest himself into bein...see above for that answer...



for u are willing to walk the DARK MILE to victory..however long it takes you'll stay the course in your personal hell..


u admire strength...u don't reward weakness



u crush those who dare to stand in yo

NIGHTMARE(FEAR)


FEAR...



its what makes u do




what u do...




talk shit..




be in denial...




cut me down..




whatever..




i can see thru that...



your afraid..



scared...



trembling even...



this fact alone



makes me stronger..



because



i'm goin to be your



worst nightmare



come true



a day will



come...



where it all



will be obvious..



nuthin will be



denied



and all



that will exist



is your



fear of me..



u see a monster...



a beast...



a freak...



an animal...



i see




drive...




pain...




strength...





pride..




and hard work..




u see someone




bustin their




ass for




nuthin...




i see




a man...




no...




someone becomin




more than a man,




who is




on a mission...




u see only limits




of me...


i see




beyond them...




i see




you hatin me..




what i really see




is a




little man..




that's afraid




of




one who isn't




fuckin




normal...




one who




enjoys pain...




one who is




possessed by




rage


one who has a




black




mindset..




one who can't




be stopped




...not even by




your mere mortal




words...




u see me




as a clown..




nobody...




a fool...



i KNOW




u see me as




that black..




monsterous




shadow




with druel




comin from



his mouth




and claws




dripping of




something black




with red eyes




hovering



over you




as i prepare




for my next




meal...



watching as



you piss




in your pants...




as i




skull fuck



your



mind




toying with u




your fear




makes me



stronger..



boogeyman...




i am NOT



i don't come



from



the closet



only



appearing



from those



dark corners



of your



mind



that is your



worst nightmare



ever..



doin things



that only scare



you...



becomin



what very few



are not able



to be...



FEAR



makes u



do foolish



things..



but in



the end...



u respect



that beast in



the shadows..



cause u



know at



any moment...



your ass is mine..



i endure pain



that is beyond



your



comprehension...



and it



makes



me stronger



possessed



by something



when



i battle



the iron



that trembles u..



i perform



lifts that



mere mortals



break under..



u know



this..



u hate this..



u fear this..



like an animal



growing



excited from



the



scent



of blood..



that nightmare..



that beast



in the night..



owns you...



and its your



fear that



feeds it...



feeds me...



making me



stronger..



so go on...



talk...



doubt me...



hate me...



make fun



of me..




for all that does




is one thing...



i will be



that beast



in the night



i will teach



you to



fear me...



i will be that



nightmare



u can't shake




as it




toys




with you



until



the day comes



when



he tears



into



your ass..



and



when he moves



onto his



next victim..



for



he has many



and is



in more



than one



place...



300 haters...



means



i'll become



the



descendant



of



hercules



feedin



off the



fears of 300



haters...



that's right



continue



to hate..



cause u


and i know



you fear me...



u fear



what u



don't understand



u fear



those that



aren't



normal



that aren't



following



the standard



i make



u tremble



at night



before u



fall asleep



knowin



that i



will never



be satified



i'll never be



big enough


or


strong enough


i'll continue



to evolve



and



you'll continue


to fear



me...



face fact..




i'm not



goin to stop



or back down



so do



your job



and hate




me




cause i know




you fear me..




but the



question



remains



when u



go to sleep...



knowing



i get stronger



from



your fear



will u be



able to



awake from



your nightmare?



only i



know that



answer...



welcome to the



pain..



FEAR ME


MOTHERFUCKER!!


TB


===================================

I AM MACHINE...


WHAT AM I?

I AM MACHINE...

i know no pain..

no suffering..

only what

must be done

to achieve

the goal..

i will do what

i must

go thru

whoever i have to

there is no

failure..

because

there is no quit

i will keep trying..

trying...

trying...

and trying...

and until i have

met my goal...

i have

animalistic tendencies

cause like an animal

i will do what i

must to

survive

none will

stop me..

for i am

programmed to be

a juggernant

i ignore the words

of petty humans

for it

only forces me

to complete my

mission

even further..

stand against me

and be

broken

its that simple

one drive..

one focus..

one mindset..

one that is black

i will move

the unmoveable

i will break

the unbreakable

i will break the

chains

of man

to become

what many fear

an animal...a beast...a freak

or a monster....

one with the

mind of a

machine...

one capable of

meetin his goals

like a hunter

hunting for his

prey..

i will even

walk the pits of

hell

and survive

and

i will do

the impossible

...no matter what

i will see my

goal

thru...

i will do things

that are

psychotic

cause nuthin

is taboo

for i must

seperate weakness

from my

body

at all cost...

there must be

no weak links..

for there is

no excuse

for bein

fuckin weak...

my strength

will be

unmatched

my rage

will be

un fuckin tamed

my mindset

will be black

best advice

best not stand

in this machine's

way...

for it will

tear thru

your ass

and mount

your skull

as its trophy...

no...this is no

ordinary machine...

so how

about u....

are u a

MACHINE?

TB


=====================

WRATH(VENGEANCE)


what...are u still talkin?

the first time...

u got the better of

me..

i won’t make the

same mistake

twice...

i remember the pain...

i felt

from being owned...

i remember the hunger

it caused

cause i wanted it..

i remember the rage..

is sparked...

when i think about

how it

happened...

this time

you’ll have to

fuckin bleed

before u

do it again

and believe me

the iron

will bleed

i will take myself

to that

darkside

that many

won’t venture

into

and do

what must be

done

u think u hold

the dice

huh?

your about to

be put

into a world

of pain

that you’ve

never experienced

in your

puny

existence..

black will be

your fuckin

daylight

u won’t

see the hell

i will

bring til

its too late

cause i hold

the fuckin dice

reality is a

bitch.

u saw the calm..

now

your about to

see the

raging storm

and maybe

i’ll let u

survive it

after its

decimation.

i plan on

running thru

u...one way

or

another

and you won’t

stop me.

so bring forth

your skull

and submit

it before the

iron gods

for they have

called forth

your sacriface..

the food

for the strong..

u want to run..

go ahead..

no matter

how far

u fuckin

run

or how

strong u think

u are..

i will catch you...

i will break you..

and i will

eat you!

u want to

beat me?

that isn’t goin to

happen

you’ll bleed

countless pints

of blood

before that

happens

u.

i’m on a

mission..

stand in my way

or be

trampled with

the weak.

its simple..

make your choice...

or experience

suffering

to the likes that

even the devil

cowers

in the corner..

are u scared yet?

no...

u will be...

fear..it will be

what is unseen to

you...

it will be me

choosing

to emerge from

the shadows

of your worse

fuckin

nightmare.

it will be pain

unbound...

knowing that

this wrath...

will occur

when i want to

like a beast

stalking its

prey

long enough

until its

hungry enough

to eat it..

this is what

happens when

u mess with a

lion

when its

sleeping

the sleeper

awakens

and it will

be your

biggest mistake

and all you’ll

be to me

is another

skull i mount

on my wall

of weak

humans.

there will be

devastation..

decimation..

destruction...

i will rip

your pride

from your

soul as

if it

belonged to me

cause it

does

I OWN YOU!

so do what

u do..

get stronger..

get as

strong as u

can...

knowing that

i’m gettin

stronger than

you

knowing

my rage

will devour

your worthless

existence

and i

will rain

upon you

with furious

vengenace

and rage

ask yourself

one question

will u survive

the hell

i will bring?

FEEL MY WRATH,

MOTHERFUCKER!

TB

=================



DECIMATION: MONSTER OF MONSTERS...

i don’t give a shit anymore...i want to be the monster of monsters...that’s my goal. do whatever monsters do to be called as such. 350lbs fuckin solid fuckin functional mass and the strength of the descendant of hercules to back it the fuck up..i want to crush...no, i want to destroy the numbers of those who think they are untouchable...those who think they can ignore or not take me seriously...eventually i’ll give them something to fear and they won’t see it comin...like a monster that dwells in the shadows of one’s nightmare...one that can’t be stopped...

i came to this decision because sometimes in what we do its hard for some of the "higher ups" to take fuckin notice. sure u email them and ask a question and never get a response back. my lifts as of late isn’t enough and i know this. so instead of holding myself to their standards, i’ll just become the monster of monsters and go after their numbers. i’ve already taken down two. goldberg when he started didn’t give a damn what others thought of what he was doin or gettin the attention of the world champ. he was goin to do it one way or another and did it one wrestler at a time and that’s how i’m goin to do it...and in the process of this, i’m goin to be the fuckin monster of monsters...bein a juggernaut..bein a fuckin nightmare...fuck becomin what they fear i will become...i want to be the cause of them waking up in cold sweats a nite...a nightmare is what i will BE!

if they won’t take notice of me and still put me down at the bottom, that’s fine. i’ll be bigger and fuckin stronger than them. period! i will do things that will shock people...i realize that. i will let me rage speak for itself on the platform. maybe then once i destroy their numbers will they take notice but it won’t matter then cause i won’t take notice that i own them. i’ll keep goin foward like the juggernaut i am asking myself...WHAT’S NEXT? evolution is a fuckin bitch and i’m a beast of rage about to evolve into a monster. and you know what...i’m goin to fuckin enjoy it! so keep watchin...keep hatin too...i fuckin love it. bit by bit i’ll show you your worse fuckin nightmare and that i’m the juggernaut bitch! pain and suffering are goin to come for me but its part of the evolutionary process of bein a monster...my road of decimation....decimation that occurs when juggernaut just don’t give a fuck anymore. this is what i learned from aichs and kennelly...and for that i thank them...

i’m done proving myself...i’m not goin to demand a damn thing...i’m just goin to take as if it was mine to begin with. i will remain true and become stronger and better myself so i don’t care about their pride or egos...their numbers is what i want. if i could take their fuckin skulls...i will. but i can’t. so their numbers will have to do. my return to full meets will occur this year and i will show them something they haven’t seen...a rage unbound and 800+ will drop like the hammer on the bench as well as a 2000 raw total. they may think that my rise up the ranks, they might see me comin but they won’t like a tornado that hits not knowin where it will strike next. have they pissed me off? yes they have...and the only ones will pay for it...will be their numbers...sucks to be them...

hell will be a daytime nap compared to what i will do next...

TB

==================

ANARCHY(INVASION)

the belief that NORMAL is both weak and pathetic",

the belief that the state and all forms of rulership are undesirable under normalizism should be abolished

in other words...little motherfuckers

shouldn't exist...

why should the little men live?

the time has come...

my freaks..

animals...

monsters...

freaks...

thy time has arrived...

no longer will

we hide who we are

nor deny it

to others...

BLACK has begun...

and like all things

black...

it will cover all

that is normal...

no longer will we

subject oursleves

to the standards

of normals

humans

puny humans...

weak-minded

fucks who are afraid to what

must be done..

evolution has begun...

no longer will we

be denied what's

ours..

we will take what's

ours

like it belonged to us

we will cause

earthquakes

with our rage

like the roar of the

mighty lion

that has come to his

kingdom.

we will scare...

intimidate

mortals

and let them know

that the weak

will not inherit

the earth

we will break

what can be broken

we will do

the impossible

we will do it

with only one

mindset...

BLACK...

we will be the

juggernauts

we are

nuthin will stop

us from our

goal..

we will

destroy all in

our path

let the haters

do what they

will

for it changes

nuthin

we will do what

it is we do

what we are bred

to do

what we are

born do to

we believe

we will be monsters...

animals...beasts...

freaks...

therefore we

will become...

fuckin nightmares...

we will become

we will invade all

those who are

weak

and devour them all

as we make

ourselves

stronger..

and we

will enjoy it

we will

shatter

what's normal

force them to

evolve or die

slowly but

surely

we will

invade...

we will scare

we will bring forth

a new era

days where bein

who we are

is respected

admired..

intimidated...

no longer are we

outcasts...

no longer will

words be enough...

to achieve glory

u must bleed

u must suffer

things that we are

willing to do

without

hesitation.

we will break those

who have

standards

and shatter

them

mortals with egos...

they will fall

prey to our rage...

and we will look at them

asking

"is that all u got?"

their numbers

won't count

for shit

our vengeance will

make even

hell quake

for even its

not safe

fear will become

a reality

to the weak

the world

will take

notice

of the coming

era

they doubt us

yes they do

they laugh at us

yes they do

but we have been

silent

no longer..

the time is now

from the shadows

we hide no

longer

will emerge

creatures that

are far beyond human

freaks...animals...beasts...monsters...

we will decimate

the impossible

stop the unstoppable

shake the unshakeable

we no longer need to

prove ourselves

they will prove

themselves to us

the standards of...

champions...warriors...immortals...

we shall test them...

no one will stop us..

we will

invade..

black has arrived....

a new world order

is coming...

we won't retreat...

we won't surrender...

we will DECIMATE...

for beings from

PLANET RAGE

has cometh

for a hostile takeover....

for an invasion...

for when it

begins....

in blackest night...

where will you be?

let the pain begin...

TB